[MUSIC] The Midnight Mares

[reverancepavane]

Just got back from a live album launch (which I really shouldn't have gone to for health reasons), and it was absolutely brilliant. The only problem is that I felt that the stripped back live versions of the songs were actually much better than the album versions, which felt a bit crowded to me. Of the album Come to Black was my favourite, whilst live Be Still is brilliant. In both cases Lethologica is third.

[On the other hand I'm in a lot of pain now and probably won't remember the songs since I tend not to lay down short term memory when I'min this state. So thisis a reminder to meas much as a public statement. Ijusthope I haven't permanently compromised my leg.]

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[reverancepavane]

The physical pain was really bad, but I know it passes. It has already lessened, although not enough to allow me to sleep as yet. And I don't think I have compromised the healing of my wound too much by my outing - it's stopped hurting, but we shall see on Wednesday when the dressing is changed.

It was worth it though. It really was a really good gig, and I am glad I got to see them play again. The joy and happiness there was overwhelming, and mean that quite literally. But it also revealed to a great degree how spiritually broken I've become, both from the disease and the isolation. And I've always refused to become the monster that others seem to see me as. Even though none there did. We carry our own ghosts with us, always. It never pays to look in the mirror, least you see what you have become. A broken mewling thing I strongly suspect in my case.

Enough of this maudlin self pity. The sun will be up soon. I think I shall bask in it's warmth again for a while.

Be well, unto you each, the other.

[reverancepavane]

And yay! Pain is finally back to normal everyday levels, palsy diminished, and brain moderately functional again.

Time to finally get some sleep. I hope.

I really really shouldn't have gone out to see them play live, especially so soon after a major flare and with a leg wound (I was twitching from the sensation from it all night). But it was worth it.

Now that they have formed a new band they are a lot happier and having fun playing music for the sake of music again. Brillig was really wearing them out, particularly Elizabeth (several of the darker songs come from this experience, or as she put it a "being in a mood." Which is wonderful!

[Although I don't know if it is advisable for me to be around people any more. Whatever control mechanisms I used to use to moderate the ambient of those around me and maintain a sense of my own self are seriously broken now.]